Friday, July 11, 20086:55 PM

Crying

I felt like saying "Mommy, my heart is aching..." but I don't know how to tell her about such things... Me and him seemed very impossible from the start, so in a way I deserved feeling hurt, cos I was told repeatedly to forget him, but I kept giving him chances. But how can you forget someone you gave a piece of your heart to?

Sometimes I think it's my fault, cos I flare up easily. But if you like someone, that person is the top priority right? If anything happened, she should be the first you contact right? Or if you wanna watch a movie, she would be the first person you asked to watch with, or just hang out with when you're bored. Or maybe I'm not such a good person to hang out with after all that he needs to squeeze me in his tightly packed night-out-with-friends schedule. I think I'm too demanding, but when I look at the Neko pair, it's normal for them. Ok, maybe that's cos they are official, and we are neither here nor there. Maybe he doesn't like me anyway. I don't know how I'm feeling now either. Everything is hiding under all these hurt and confusion. I'm prolly not important to him anyway.

I need him to tell me what's going on, or a car wreck. Whichever is easier to get. Right now I wanna hug.

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