Wednesday, December 05, 20077:59 AM

I hate programming

No use crying over spilled milk, and certainly not over something that might hurt some lecturers, especially Dio, Mr Lim, etc. But then heck, I doubt they know this place exist, and I can't stand it anymore.

Teddy hates programming. Yes yes, you know the drill, I hate it so much I can't stand anyone talking about codes in front of me. I hate this freaking course even more. From day 1 I knew I was gonna suffer in here but I don't know why I stayed. Hey hey it's my fault. Whee. Cos I don't know where else to go. Hello? 16 and gullible? And a screwed up education system and the effed up mentality of this freaking country? Oh yea.

I am not saying I didn't have fun. It was more like, adrenalin rush, fun with friends, pride and stuff that kept me sane until IAP. Then during the holidays, I did so much graphics that I realised my life was screwed the moment I stepped into this course cos I wanted to do graphics so badly now.

And then this semester, although we only have 4 modules, 1 of which is really random (no prizes for guessing which), 1 that is really useless (yogi bear's module), 1 that I REALLY have no clue about (that would be ogre), and 1 more that is almost killing me. Right now, I already have one foot in my grave cos of it. It's not the sleepless nights, I can take that. It's because I need to know math. I barely scrapped through year 1 math, and now..? Omg, I know remember why I hated math so much. This module is TOTALLY freaking unfair. It's like "I know shit doesn't taste good, but it's good for your health so eat it" Goodness, math to me is like shit, doesn't look, taste or smell nice, and will never be good for me. Getting rid of shit IS the good thing for me. So is getting rid of math. So yes, math = shit. And programming would be pee then.

hate this bloody !#$#E@!^ course. Is not fair, that stupid lecturer (round tubby whats-his-name) expected everyone to know programming when they are born and started teaching Greek. And always say "Never mind, you don't need to know this" and then launches into some stupid game thingy. No wonder I died in year 1. Thanks to Mikonos + Chiny, I got resurrected temporarily.

And now, shaders. OMG screwed up. Yes yes, the other batch had it worse from some random China lecturer (mad obviously), and luckily we had Dio. But still. Asking me to research on programming nonsense is some effing waste of time shit that I'll NEVER do in my life. and those "exercises" she gave. Never had an exercise that counted towards my overall grade. And never had an exercise that gave me depression. It's for my own mental health I didn't do any. Only my guilt make it attempt it. So if I fail this module, I fail with a badge of honor for sticking to my principles, and protecting my sanity. But I would jeopardize my future. Choices choices... I hate this life.

Saying I'm burnout is stupid. Everyone is saying this like some kinda trend, and I'm a rebel, so I'm not burnout. "OMG, I'm burnout" is now some form of emo declaration in this course now. And I'm not emo. I'm not burnout. I just hate programming to begin with. Bah. To hell with programming. Who needs it.

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