Friday, November 09, 20075:18 AM

Stardust for memories

I think I have depression. I feel... odd when I'm alone, and there are people I wanna strangle, me included. I'm so tired, I always have this stupid throbbing in my head, my brain lacks air and I need to think fast or fall flat on my face. Such a stupid place, this world is... That was all I could think of.

La Selle has yet to reply, Topshop have yet to call. I'm always waiting for something or another. Why can't someone ever wait for me? Hey, wait for me now, whoever you are. I want to feel needed too. And I just wish I can stop waiting for Mr Right. Stop waiting for people to ask them out. But anyway, I want to stop being the one who ask people out for once. Hey, give me a break. I'm tired of waiting for replies. I don't want to make trivial decisions like where to eat, where to go, what to do. It's sick, makes my mind rot faster. Maybe I'll hire a butler to make such decisions for me.

I keep wondering why I am still here... Why am I still coding... when it's practically killing me. I have so much other stuff to do, much more burden to bear. If I have to suffer like this then don't let me grow up. I don't want mental burden and responsibilities at the same time. This is not the 80's already. I wanna buy Prada and Gucci like the girls of my age. Kidding. I want h.Naoto.

Trying to be happy, trying to keep my beautiful sky in view. But the stench of my surroundings constantly remind me this place is not as happy as I want it to be, and eventually, I'm alone, always alone. Nevermind if I'm surrounded by people. I don't know them anymore... And they don't need me either.

I don't know why I'm feeling like this. Maybe that's because nothing goes well for me right now... I can't even save ルル from my horrible bros... and I need to help bro1 buy his prom suit... *faints* I was saving for my Rose Juliet!!! Why...? *sob* Man, I'm gonna charge him a high interest rate...

Hopefully when I wake up, my Prince will ask me to go out tomorrow. Hopefully.

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