Tuesday, October 09, 20077:34 AM

雅 rocks!

Yay~ Love the man yo. Really Japanese music genius. Watching (more like oogling at 雅）his 7 samurai sessions DVD right now. Uber cool... Love his remixes! The way he improvises during Live is also... jaw dropping. Okok, he might have practiced it before hand, but still, his guitar skills are awesome! Just like 麗！

Last Sunday went out with Bman and Jaime to catch Ratatouille. Make that FINALLY caught Ratatouille. Yes people, Teddy has finally witness the sheer animation genius that is Ratatouille. No, I'm not condeming Nemo, nor the Incredibles, but this film just topped that lot. The fur, the sounds, the movement (so ルル like...), the food (oh glorious, real looking food) that looks better than kopitiam fare (duh)... Yes all in all, 5/5 rating from Teddy!

Anyway had fun with Bman and Jaime. Jaime was late! lol, worse than Buggy... *cough* But nonetheless, fun day. Saw Dom and Heibi and motley crew, so funny, the way we ran (well, me and Bman run, dragging a perplexed, not for long, Jaime along) from them. But well, the smart doth not suffereth. Rofl. Argh! chubby chump medieval! eww! *bats buggy*

Anyway, this Thursday we'll be meeting our "kind sponsors" and creatures like that. Oh why us? *bats KB* wish us luck! *prays for survival*

And there was vanilla *dramatic pause*
Ok ok, enough of the theatrics. Anyway, there was this queer vanilla smell that got us (Gab, Buggy, me, and my family later at home) wondering. Where did it come from? It's sweetness made me lightheaded, and because it's so intense, it's cloyingly sweet and nauseating... Odd for a sweet-things-lover like me... But anyway, Buggy obviously wasn't adversely affected by the scent. In fact, it "inspired" him to get all things vanilla. So he bought 2 cans of Vanilla Coke (sitll exists, surprisingly), 2 cans of ice cream Soda, 1 vanilla bun, and the topper of it all: 1 Vanilla Ice blend from Coffee Bean. Tasted like Vanilla milkshake/ice cream though.

And yay! I didn't miss the bus this time! As usual, Buggy walked me to the bus stop, but the last time he did, I got distracted shooing him that I forgot to flag the bus down. I WAS AT THE BUS STOP! *bats self* Anyway this time, I didn't miss the bus! *sticks tongue out at buggy*

Erm anyway, during lunch today, Buggy talked about um, the topic of love. Anyway, I can't remember the details now, all I know is, I kept thinking "that way of thinking is selfish". But I just can't say it, because I'd have to explain why, which, at that point of time, I wasn't comfortable enough to explain. Well, right now I'm not sure if I can explain my thought adequately either but here goes nothing. Hey my blog yo, I can think as much as I want here!

Um anyway. I've dated once, though I didn't necessarily fell in love with that guy. Thought I did, but nah, it was just a more physically intimate relationship that's all =/ So I don't know what love is. But what I do know is, if I loved someone, I would NEVER ask him to change at all. Not an atom, nor a thought. If he looked dopey, I liked him dopey, if he was into R&B, fine, I'll just listen to my JRock. But yea, no smoking, no drugs, no cussing. Turns me off in the first place. Yeap, I'm not changing myself for him either. Love me for who I am, stubbornly independent, narcissist and fat.

Anyway, why I thought his view was selfish was because, if 2 people got together, mainly because the other was doing something necessary but useless to him/her, it's not a relationship. It's a partnership with bonus of more physical intimacy that's all. That's not love. That's practical. And I don't believe (or ever want to) that love is about practicality, that love is a means to an end. Well, example, I'm setting up a web, and I love designing but hate programming. So off I go, fall in love with someone that programs but hate designs, but somehow has to design. So when we realize we don't NEED (not love, need) each other anymore, we say bye bye. Well, I probably won't feel sad, I'll just feel lonely because there'll be no one to cuddle me. But that, is not love. If I loved someone, why the heck would I say bye bye to him? Maybe Buggy isn't into commitment. Lifelong commitment. Oh well, what the heck, that's his problem already.

It's so wrong! Argh! Where's the love? No don't start singing no Black Eye Peas song gurlfriend *bats JM* Anyway chances of finding someone utterly useless to you, and you to him/her are rather... slim. I wish Buggy all the best in his endeavors. Anyway, humans need a certain level of physical intimacy. To be happy being with a person and not attain some level of physical intimacy (to me, it's cuddling) is just good friends. To not receive that kind of physical contact over a prolong period of time is... horrible. Imagine a baby being left alone. Crying because it's lonely. Well, that's sad. And I personally do not cuddle my friends.

I just feel so lonely lately. But it's not true, I'm not alone. I mean, I hang out with friends almost everyday, my parents and I play with ルル every night, why the hell do I still feel lonely?

Aw.... Just wanna go sleep. お休み　皆ーさん～ Be happy! Whee~

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