Wednesday, May 03, 20066:03 PM

Nana-maru wan cry liaox


Why, why, why, why, why do bad things happen? I used to think the reason why ppl keep living is to find the reason/purpose of their existence. I used to think mine was to make more money, help those abandoned kids in the world (tho i extremely hate brats...), and give my parents a good life. That and the fact I decided to make a super duper addictive out-of-reality game for busy folks out there, who lost all imagination to the dog-eat-dog, make-ends-meet-or-die world out there. So yea, it's a game for Oto-san. Currently kinda facing the biggest financial crisis in my life. Not like I'm starving or sth... More like, I cant buy on whim anymore that sort of things. My Neo Genesis~~~! Bah.. Shoo unhappy thoughts!


Every morning I would wake up and think, can I miss today? I seriously feel like sleeping in... Normally I would wake up and think, "Yay~ today can see the FB girl/KC-kun~" or if there's JMD, it would be "Yay~ can disturb Lyn-chan/Yurin, Ham-ham-kun~!" or sth like that... Now, even JMD dun appeal to me anymore (more of that later...). I wake up thinking, "Cant i sleep abit more? I dun like what I am doing with my life anymore. GAming, programming, dancing, singing, all sux right now. Even sleeping sux. Cos everytime I close my eyes, I see bad stuff. Or bad things that happened before, happening before me again... Arg!! Sooner or later I will have a defective tear gland. Guess it's ok, cos I hate the me that always cry...


Dno wad came over me. It's like, everything sux, can I just die or grow up in a second, or i'll realy suffocate in this meaningless life. There's realy no options this time... For DET< it's only, pass everything or die. For JMD, i cant possibly go to Danny's dance at a time like this. It'll be utterly pang seh on my part. I mean, it's a bad time for JMD, cos Bry-kun left, and Moo Moo -kun is doing Danny's dance...


AH... dying... doushiyo?

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