Sunday, January 22, 200612:51 AM

A very sad post


This is to Wendy. I dont have to hide anything because it's obvious I dont like you FROM TODAY. I'm not sure if you can see this, but in case you dont, I'll get someone to convey my message to you. Meanwhile, I'll write my feelings here, so I would be open, calm and collected. And so that everyone can see for themselves, my animosity towards you. But, I'm not backstabbing you, dont get me wrong. Whether you like it or not, I'm actually telling you this so that you can be a better person after you graduate. Please dont think I'm disrespectful. If I was, you wouldnt have been standing there with the last word.


Firstly, I'd like to make myself clear to everyone in JMD. I joined JMD for J-Rock, as a Vocalist. But, JMD doesnt have a J-Rock band, so naturally my choice was singing. It was singing all the way, because, at that time, I hate dance. But, too bad for me, JMD's mainstream was dance. So I got the hang of dancing, and ended up enjoying. And I admit, it was I who pulled Albin in. But even if I enjoyed dancing, it doesnt mean I made it my first choice. So, when Jae asked which side I would choose to perform for, I naturally chose singing. And I personally feel I sing better than I dance. Why should I make a fool of myself? Although in the end, Albin and Gab did prove me wrong. With practice, you can become better. You guys rocks.


And secondly, I did not BEG Steve to make me Asst. Dance Co-ordinator. Why? Because I didnt know there was such a post and also, I cant dance as well as you, or anyone of my batch. If you want my post, you could have said so earlier. I would rather take Lyn-chan's post. So, you totally unjustified me with your very crude and damning remark. You sullied my reputation in front of everyone, and even if you apologise (which I doubt you ever would), I would think you insincere. Because you never think before you speak. And you never practise what you preach. Know why I say that? Because you commented on Lyn-chan(no need to pretend, I know who you're talking about) being careless in her remarks, making unfounded accusations on some seniors having no commitment, but here you are, spouting off silly notions, I begged to be asst. dance co-ordinator, and I backstabbed Chee Ching by joining the now-called Vocalist Division. Worst still, in front of almost everyone.


Thirdly, I feel that you're insulting your 'gor" Jae, by that remark too. You have questioned his trust in my being better in singing than dancing. Do you think it's fair? Do you want to know why was I so fed up when you butted in to critcise me yesterday? Not because I hate you. It's because I don't like how you acted like you know the world. And also cos of another thing which I will mention later. First, you need to understand this. Although I may show attitude to Jae and Xiang Ming, I'm actually GRATEFUL to them, especially Jae, for making the singing performance possible. ANd more to Jae because he chose me. And also because, he injured himself in order to make it to watch our performance on Fri. So when I screwed up, I took it really hard. That hard I held back my tears. I was about to cry dammit, when Jae had a one-on-one talk with me. Until YOU butted in, And I couldnt take it anymore and walked away. Please, Don't ever repeat things I already know. Please dont under-estimate me if you don't know me. Please do not think I'm having an easy life in the Vocalist Division, none of us in JMD are. And I salute everyone for their commitment.


Last of all, it's the first thing I noticed about you when I stepped into JMD. You like to attract attention. It's not a bad thing actually. We do that sometimes. Well, most of the time in JMD. But the difference between us and you is that, we do not KEEP PUT AND OCSTRASIZE others. To put it in your words "We are a family". We include everyone, like it or not, in whatever we say, if they are interested and the topic is not private, eg, funny things that happen in the previous batch. We do not butt in into others private conversations. You have a tendency to do the latter, and then when you realise that we are speaking in a foreign tongue, you switch to talking about things in common with the people you like in that group, leaving the others, usually us newbies, and maybe people you dont like (I dont know what you're thinking. I'm not you), behind.


Please dont say I'm making false accusations. I speak from my mind, and a little from my heart. I never assumed the reasons why you did those things. You are free to fill in that blank if you wish. I only stated what I saw and felt and rephrased in it a civilised manner. Which is why, my vulgarities are little. I dont know what Danny meant when he said JMD had problems with you. I dont wish to know or bring that up. Which is why I hope what I experience with you know has nothing to do with the 'old' you. Because if it did, it just means that a leopard never changes its spots, and good luck to you and your future. I'm sorry to say this when you're about to leave. Take it or leave it.


Someone please tell me why am I so nice today.

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