Monday, January 23, 200612:00 PM

Sick and tired


I went to read Danny's blog. He mentioned something about some people in JMD being childish. It gave me some food for thought.What I wrote in my previous entry seems childish as an afterthought. But what I've written is true. I have a right, to express my childness, if anyone please, my angst and my annoyance in my OWN blog. Neither do I wish for others who are uninvolved [frankly, I think NO ONE else (even those I sought advice from) should get involved, even Wendy herself] to butt in on my feelings. I've blogged it, and it's thus erased from my memory. Lesson learnt.


I have not tolerated her for the past 3 years like some of the seniors did. To me, it's as if I just met her. Though it seems I've known her for a period of slightly less than a year, I never once had a normal chat with her like I did with other seniors. On that unfortunate day itself, before that incident, I never annoyed her directly(maybe she thinks the shirt I wear looks offensive or something I dont know). Neither have I conversed with her on initiative. Because I never did before, and never saw the need to on that day. For those that knows me, this is my character. I'm very 'bo-chup'.


She gave me the impression that she was bent on seperating JMD into singing and dancing. Call me over-sensitive, or maybe she's just a cam-wh*re(I am abit of it too, but I dont hog onto people's cam and take pics of myself), a subtle event like taking pictures triggered of this notion. This is again MY blog, and I'm free to express my silly-ideas-gone-wild here. So, I became annoyed, because I do not wish for JMD to split. And also, ever since JMD temporarily seperated for openhouse, I was worried that within JMDevious itself, bonds will be loosened. I'm one who Hates seperation, even if only short-term, and I also hate being alone.


Call me selfish, I dont even wish for ANYONE, including Danny (for all my fears, yes, even him),
to leave. Yes, everyone has their own private life. But surely, I'm entitled to my own childish fantasy right? Then, there she goes, asking only Dance side to take picture with her. And let me ask you, Wendy, is Gia part of dance side? Jus because she isnt performing, just because she couldn't make it for practice, is she now forever banished from Your Dance Side? That makes her neither here nor there. Do you have a fetish for excluding people, and making them look bad in front of others? I dont mean it as a sarcarsm . It's the exact vibes you give me everytime I'm around you.


I'm sick and tired of people asking me to chill when I talk about that incident. That's why I turned to my blog. And also notice how I spared the full blown incident from everyone. The images get distorted over time, and I have short-term memory, so I dont want to paint a wrong people for those who wish to know though uninvolved (a.k.a kaypo). My feelings dont lie, although it will be bias and blown out-of-proportion because of my hyper-imaginative mind and sometimes unfair to her point of view. Call me childish, call me evil. Cry foul all you want. This will be the last time I'll talk about this. Case closed, though I'll never delete my posts.


Geesh, cant people get their freedom around here? It's not like I'm racist or something now. Lemme b*tch all I want in my blog.

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