Wednesday, December 07, 200512:11 PM

Frustrated


Lately I have been emotionally depressed. Don't know why sia. (Pardon my use of Singlish. I'm more at home with it). Hm, the guy I like (dont feel like naming names here) seems to like someone else. And his attitude changed 180 degrees now. No longer that perfect guy liao. *sad* When will the perfect one appear and stay forever nee?


Yesterday, I saw something weird. I was waiting for Dad at the usual place, when I saw this car with the owners' bloodtype on it. But the catch is this. The male driver SMOKES. He rather die of smoking than die of car accident and bloodloss. Very funny. And he is so inconsiderate. And selfish. H smoked beside the ice-cream man (that nice uncle that is always there, rain or shine) and in front of me. Puh-lease, if you wanna die, mister, dont drag innocent people to your grave with you. And I know this sounds mean, but I wished smokers like him would just get killed in an accident. Sacrifice a few to save the masses. No pollution, no 2nd hand smoking lung cancer. But I didnt make the rules, so I can only complain here. Im not a smokers hater. I dont understand why people would breathe in the smelly stuff, but Im nt gonna condemn them. I just condemn those that tried to kill me with 2nd hand smoke. Like that selfish guy. Mivi-chan is quitting smoking, Uruha-chan and Aoi-kun smokes, so who am I to blame?


Aoi ish teh sekushi-iest. Hehe. He got the height, and shoulders, and the lanky built. Plus his lips are so damn pouty (actually Uruha's lips are sexiest.. Heh). The lip ring brings out his attitude more. Oh yea. Why am I saying all this? Gah.. Mad. Isnt it obvious? Wa... I'm super bored. It's in PPS (a sucky module), and Im freaking bored to death. But nevermind~ Later got JMD. Tralalala. 18 days to X-mas desu~ Cant wait? Actually, I dont want X-mas to come. Cos people only remembers X-mas but not me. Very sad...


My tears dried. Everytime I want to cry, nothing comes out. Could it be I've become more mature, and crying is not what I'm suppose to do now, or Im totally dried of emotions?


Had a really horrible nightmare last night. But as usual, I wasnt scared. As usual, I was protecting someone. I wish someone would protect me from all the hurts... Wish someone would hand me a tissue when I cry...Im tired of being of alone

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