I'll settle some miscellanous stuff first. Mish asked me to go out with her next Sat at 1.30pm. Whee~ *happy grins all over* Love ya Mish! Then, D's upset about the London bombing and his gramps'impending death.

It's serious, about the gramps thingy. Not that I dont care about the bombings. I do, it's just not close to home for me... But I know D, and he's a great friend, so I feel sad for him. I know how it feels... And the timing's so bad cos it's prolly the Mid-Yr's for him now. Hope he gets over this gloom soon.
Then, I saw HIM (1 of the Whatevers that's keeping me alive...)at FJ a few days back. He looks yummier than that yummy Fish 'n' Chips I had... Hm-mmm... K, I'm not thinking anything about him now. It hinders my logic (or whatever remains of my logic)... Moreover, methinks (woah... me thinks...) he has a huge appetite (or maybe guys just eat that much), cos I saw him devour a full meal (his backview looks cute while he's devouring...) and went off to get dessert... I'm losing my appetite gradually, though I dont see myself reducing into bits and bones... Pah...

Anyway, WM had this breakdown yesterday. I was shocked really. I hadnt seen her for years (ok.. abit way off) and she comes to me red-eyed and sobbing. And nearly squished the life out of me. Not that she's huge or whatever, she slimmed down too, it's just that after months of abstaining from human touch, it's kinda hard to get into the emotional touchy-feely stuff in order to comfort her in front of a crowd of unknowns. Not even sure if she'd known them too cos I was bundled into a taxi with poor her and her friends. Nice peeps they are... Though I wasn't expecting the ride, so I wasn't sure if I'd paid enough for my fare. I didnt make much of a conversation with her friends too. Gosh, I wonder what Mrs Ling ( my comm skills teacher) will say. Prolly fail me... Zzz... I hope I don't retain. Dont wanna see Mr Pighead...

And I went JMD again. Whee~ *smiles happily* It's not like my girl friends would balance out with my boy friends if I went there, it's just that, it's fun there. And there's dance. I've always wanted to dance. Plus it's dance, singing and Jap. Woot!

Kinda lonesome too. The list (woah I had a list... *sweatdrop*) of people I can have crushes on is dwindling (to 1 only). That 1 and only person is HIM. And it's so impossible for anything to happen between us cos I dont have the guts to smile at HIM, much less say 'Hi'... Why did my list decrease anyway...? Hm... Ha... Lack of nice guys out here probably... Or maybe I'm too picky. B and Lx are out. A has a GF now... I'm gonna make a sign saying "Nice Guys Interested In Being Added To My Crush List, Please Call This Number: 9#######" Wahahaha.

The reasons to live decreased to only a few. I mean, for the next week it would be cos of Sakuran's carnival, and Mish's outing,possible pranks being played by my class, and maybe that glimmer of hope I could glance at HIM... But there isnt a carnival every week, and Mish don't get holidays every Saturdays.My class isn't sick enough to think of pranks everyday. And I cant hold on to what's left of me with only a glance of HIM... So I gotta find new reasons to live for. Find new reasons to fight for my survival. And school(work) isnt helping to destress me either...

Fight for my FREEDOM!!! *loves Miyavi*