"I miss :
* your voice *
* smsing you *
* your laughter *
* going out wif you *
* raisin my head looking at you *
* being the one to stand by you *
* the look on your face when you saw me *
* not being able to whisper in your ear *
* those times we talked on the phone for hours *
* you waving or saying "hi" to me when you saw me *
* you standing by my side walking down the streets *
* you giving me a call if i didn't replied your sms *
* the look on your face when our face brush past each other *
* having to look forward to the day knowing i would see you again *
* those times where i have to ask you to bend down while i tip-toed juz to whisper *
* in your ear *


* i miss you so much * " - Na-chan to B...

Sometimes I wonder why am I so stupid.. Why am I still missing him. The scars in my hearts tore open yesterday, when I realised all those stupid things I'm doing now, all those crazy moments I had, were cos I'm missing him so badly. I'm tormenting myself, tearing myself to bits, all cos I dont wanna cry for him. I dont want to let him go. Not yet... But he's not mine now. And will no longer be mine...Why am I still so foolish, waiting for him here? I wish one day I can open up again, and not do foolish things. I'm empty and cold. And only I can help myself... I really missed him yesterday. I wonder if, I controlled long enough not to sms him.. Will my feelings fade? Hope so... But nothing's working...