(note: This is written on a train to school, thus it's long)

Dad found out that I was slightly demented. No biggie right? But he tends to misunderstand me sometimes. Dad being Dad is so easy to jump into conclusions. Gee... Ya so he'll probably think I'm a spoilt brat, attention seeker.

And by the way, I had this HUGE blowout with S. I took it as a stress reliever, but I wonder how he took it. He would probably hate me for life... Arg... It's so hard to read someone's intentions at times... Then again, I doubt anyone would dare to speak to him that way. He needs a taste of reality. Geesh, I wonder what my guild thinks of me now. But then, wtf did I care about what they thought anyway?

And Lx... I don't know... Old feelings start to return, or maybe I'm just treating him as a vessel for my flood of feelings. I missed being loved and all that already... Guess I must stop feeling that way or I'll be deemed as a despot... Arg!!!

Omg, and yesterday, the guys said I would turn into 'one of them' by the end of 3 years... cos I'm abit of a tomboy now. But then again, if I was a tomboy that likes guys, I'm still considered normal, right? Yea, no sweat, I'm THE (pretty-)boy crazy Na-chan, the ChibiGothika (Baby Gothic).

Then there's my stupid signature... It's not fancy or anything, cos I can never come out with anything fancy... But at least it has to look somewhat important right? Not some squigglylines that look faintly like my initial... Bah, I must practise more... The only excuse I can give for my pathetic looking signature is that I currently sign my attendance only, so my signature is cramped within a 5mm by 2 mm (rough estimate) box. I'm claustophobic, thus I find this tiny space kinda cramp my style... Riight...

I suspect the train stations do not do maintainence work regularly at all... There's creaking noises sometimes, and the train stops for no reason at all. The doors took a longer time to close too. I should report this to the train people. Just doing my job as a good citizen. Or maybe I'm just halucinating cos I cant wait to get out of the freaking train. As proven, I'm so freaking bored that I'm writing my blog on the train.

I'm going out with L and W.Q today. Don't know what movie to watch... QQ cant come cos he got private outing with his GF.. *envious* Nowadays I'm so bored, I'm even willing to freeze and bruise my butt (and see G too) in the ice-skating ring. But I cant, cos I have a 6 pm curfew unless it's CCA, which starts at 6 (according to some unknown source). Thank goodness Sakuran starts at 3, and I hope it's official. And there's a nasty rumor that Acrhery starts at 6 pm on Wed or unknown time on Sun. Which freaking idiot would want to shoot arrows at night or on Sunday???

Anyway, my attitude does suck. Scolding vulgars every 10 mins, all-out brawls and laughing silly at some poor bloke prove that point. Maybe I should be like hermit-girl of 04. Then maybe I wont turn into a tomboy, but be a delusional freak who talks to herself all day. No offense here hermit-girl, but I feel I'll be a better freak than you. *evil laughter* ( point proven, I'm evil and obnoxious and vulgar)

Someone please save my sanity.