Normally, I love DES, cos during lectures, can snooze, during practicals, I just breeze through, usually cos of lack of brainpower. Now, I cant wait for DES prac to end. Cos I'm sleepy. And it's all that Pighead's fault. And I didnt catch my forty winks (jus 30) during DES lecture. I got the most comfy seat there, but I cant sleep. Ironic. Cos some 01 shit are lamering about somewhere below high-and-mighty me. Thus my eyebags (not obvious, but it's still there). Oh bother. I, a pure blooded being, could let senseless, mindless fools like 01s undermine my concentration.

Geesh. I must stop sounding like this. I aint a snob... I just switch to 'The-Honorable-Pristine-Royal Princess' mode whenever I'm bored. And I mean bored with super-imposed capital 'B'. Now I'm wondering what mom's cooking for dinner. The thought made me go rumbly again, cos I only ate kani sushi ( I forgot to take my allowance again... Poor me), and I puked my miserable lunch out in PPM, cos Hans said, the way Pighead sat was 'sexy' (you get what I mean. No way a Pig-man can be sexy)

Just wondering how some guys can look pretty and droolsome altogether, while girls get tossed aside for being tomboyish. Geesh. Staring at SLx (and his funky hairstyle... Why am I so into hair???) from here is so distracting. And A is just beside... Zzz... double eyecandy. Arg!!! What am I doing??? I'm not the horny one. ZT is!!! Bla I'm just bored.

And the guys said green tea and peppermint were detrimental to me... (in the sense that I may not be able to have descendants in future). Puh-lease. I thought it only applies to guys, and it cant possibly happen to females. I'm not getting into serious Biology now. Go figure yourself. And, we're like what, 16-17 years odd? What's this talk about descendants in year 2005? Ok, what I'm saying now isnt helpful to Sg's population growth.. But let's face it, it's the truth. I bet some guys use green tea and peppermint (and whatever concoction they can think of) as a prevention of unforseen events. I doubt anyone cares if the effects are permanent. And if it's serious, the government would start imposing fines on guys for buying them products.

Am I being too frank here, or am I just bored again? Bored I reckon. This isnt a touchy topic to me anymore. What the heck do I care for anyway? It's not like I'm gonna mate now or anything... Zzz, oh gosh what am I saying? Going nuts, going cranky. As if anyone cared. Er... Maybe the guys do, as in they 'cared' for my mental stability cos there's a probability of them sitting next to me during lectures, and they wouldn't want me ranting mad to myself, scaring them silly. (Is this familiar or what?)

Anyway, I'm drifting further apart from them guys. I mean, it's obvious I dont belong there, unless I choose to sacrifice my girl-being to mix with the in-crowd (which only consists of guys). I dont know what am I gonna do with my life. I have my laziness to blame, and can only pray (to whom, I don't have a clue) I dont end up like hermit girl there. But, I guess I'll be glad for some girl company, sane or not. And maybe she'll like to have some talking company, soon-to-be-insane.

Which reminds me, someone told me to watch my weight due to my recent choco binge. I think my weight puts on gradually, but it's obvious. However, the only obvious side effect of my choco fantasy right now, is my sore throat... Which I'm nursing painfully right nw... I mean, does it matter if I get fat or have the side effects of tipping them scales (ie: diabetes, heart attacks... *all together now, 'Ahhh!!!'*)? I dont even care. *applause* If my life ends cos of eating too much, I'll die without regrets. *louder applause*Cos I died trying to enjoy myself to the fullest right?*echos of 'Right on matey!'* And I dont have to give a shit to what the guys in my class say, cos I'm not gonna hit on them or they on me *sigh of disappointment from me*, and I can only have crushes due to my lack of courage to take risks again. *sob* So I can be a contented chubby gothic with a constant supply of comforting soul food (see: CHOCOLATE!) .

So much for being contented... I'm craving to be held (so what's new?). Unless I pluck up courage to start afresh again, I'm just gonna sit here and sulk and cry. Which I'll be doing til maybe I'm strong enough... Which is... I dont know when. "Time will tell", and I salute the genius (booze, bottoms and all) who came up with this smart-alecky excuse of a lifetime. I seldom salute (unless I'm going bonkers due to overwhelming patriotic pride on NDP) , so I made someone smile in his/her grave, eh? *cynical laughs* Er, I also salute lame people.

And number 1 on my lst is Mr Pighead of PPM. *evil grin and cries of utmost support*