"So I shut myself up in my own world, what's the big deal? I do come out to say 'Hello' once in awhile right?"- Mel

So I had nothing to do but to take that darn IQ taste. Believe me, ignorance is bliss. I've always deemed highly of myself, so it was a blow when my IQ is just 'significantly above average'. And I'm now having a blighting headache from staring at the myriads of puzzles... I, supposedly a genius, is now titled as 'One who has IQ significantly above average'. The days of delusioning myself with the clear and obvious fact that I'm plain lazy has ended... Which means,realistically speaking, my laziness plus my significantly above average IQ equals to my impending doom of failure. I'm all but an average IQ person, realistically speaking. Nuts...

I should be happy. I'm not an abnormal person (other than the fact I cry myself to sleep). I'm blessed (or not, depending on whether you are as egoistic as moi) with normalities, an average human being on Earth. There goes the days of daydreaming I'm an unpolished gem waiting to be refined (sounds familiar eh, fellow Dunearnites?). I'm normal. How bad is that? *sob*

Back to ignorance being bliss.

Sometimes, when I reflect upon things I did, I realised that if I weren't so pesky, wayward or curious, things might have worked out better. For once, if I gave him more time to consider, and not so bent on finding out the answer, we might still end up together. Or not, cos he probably wont muster up enough 'feelings' to be with me again. Then again, the curiousity was practically eating me whole... Like now, I'm still wondering why I am not in his arms right now, and instead, shivering in this blasted computer lab. Yea. I wondered about this question for about a few weeks already. I still dont have the courage to ask him after so long...

And... I hope I'm not seriously into Lx. Yea yea, I'm fickle-minded... But yesterday, he was like so mean. I told him I wont abandon friends, which obviously I dont do until I'm forced to, and he tells me to leave him alone. And he accuses (ok, abit too strong a word, but that's what it felt like to me) me of psychoing him to go out with us today. Geesh, so much for being honest...

Anyway, why am I shivering in the computer lab when it's past dismissal? Cos I'm meeting them (D, S and goodness knows who else they are calling) 1 hour later and I've got nothing to do before then. D mentioned he wanted to ask B to come along. Half of me wanted to ban him from calling B out, the other half was desperately praying B would ditch his friends to come out with us. I mean, what's wrong? We're still good friends right? According to him, that is. I'm still nursing a grudge against him, though I dont know the specific reasons now... So much for letting him go with a smile...