I never written about us in my post very much before... But I guess I should... Cos it's part of my life...

I went out with him last Thursday... to pass him some cookies I baked... I passed some to Chun Yu too (Happy Belated Bday girl! *gruns*). While waiting for cy to come.. we went to the library... I got bored reading my book... and fell asleep on his shoulders... Unfortunately, my dad happened to be there... and he caught us... He said some pretty harsh things I chose to forget... cos i dont wanna leave him... Then CY came, and we left for Causeway Point... Eye 10 wasnt showing anymore.. so we watched Guess Who... boring.. but kinda funny.. and at one point I cried.. cos that bit was kinda touching.. and kinda related to the trauma i had earlier in the day...

During one part of the show, he asked if I was alright.. I could only nod and tell him yes... but my heart was about to break.. so I gave him a little kiss on his cheeks... and hoped he wouldnt feel bad about that stupid incident... Surprisingly I didnt feel cold throughout the show... Maybe cos he was holding my hands... *giggles* Then CY left... we went to buy the finger gloves, I got a black cross and he got a white cross... Then he sent me back to Westmall...

When he was about to board the train to YCK... he hugged me tightly... I was so touched... I just wished time would stop there, so that I can be in his arms forever... But he had to let go... cos the traindoor was about to close... I hate leaving... I could feel tears brimming.. but I couldnt let them go... I hate it...

Everytime I'm with him, I dread my phone ringing... It's always someone(mom/dad) spoiling the mood...Wished I could chuck this double-edged sword...And sometimes.. I wish he could take the initiative to hold me close... but i understand... that he is shy... takes time to adapt... I'm still learning to adapt to the fact I'm grounded by my Dad... first time it happens in my entire life.

But I'm not regretting it. It's a mistake (to my parents), but it's a beautiful one I willingly chose to make...